She’s sexy, attractive, powerful, confident, rich, and she has a secret.
She feels unstoppable and ready to take on the world in her 4 inch Choos and her Toms.
She’s a walking contradiction,
A mala-bead wearing, Michael Kors-bag toting dreamer with a degree.
She loves coffee and Kombucha.
She has a meditation pillow and her idea of a vision board is her Pintrest page.
Who the Heck am I???
I was very young when I first experienced depression. I remember it was summer and I would sit alone in my house with the tv on, not paying attention to what was on the screen. I sat on the floor for hours and hours feeling this overwhelming hopelessness. I tried to dig myself out, but I couldn’t. Friends would knock on my door and I would make up lies about why I couldn’t come out that day. I’m not being dramatic when I say I often thought that my family and the world would be better off if I wasn’t around. I felt like a burden not worthy of my mother’s worry. I was twelve.
Eventually the depression left me, but the experience never did. I never wanted to feel that way again! It left such an impression that I found myself through the years in a constant pursuit of happiness. It manifested in different ways. It first came in the form of success. I thought that if I became an incredible dancer and my career was set that I would be happy. I worked my ass off and when my mom suggested I skip ballet class one night to finish a school project that I was feeling overwhelmed about I threw a fit. I’m talking crying and screaming craziness! I put so much pressure on myself that I made myself sick-I’m talking hospital, hooked up to an IV sick! Needless to say, I wasn’t happy.
Next came the idea that if I was thin I would be happy. You can guess where this is going…while I was never diagnosed with an eating disorder I did restrict enough to lose my period and I had some body dismorphia issues that took a long time to get over.
The third way I tried to obtain happiness was through money. I worked every spare moment through college, and after college there was a point when I worked four jobs at the same time. I saved up a lot of money, but I was so anxious about losing it that I held onto it as tightly as I could and it never felt like enough.
Which brings me to today. I’m happy. I’m happy in a way that is grounded, and lasting, and everlasting. I’ve found out some truths lately that I know can help so many others be happy too and I feel like I would be stealing from you all if I didn’t share what I now know. You have a magnificent power within you. You have everything you need to be happy, loved, successful, abundant, sexy, radiant, powerful and joyful. Basically you have everything you need to kick ass and take names!
And in regards to my pursuits before, I am currently still plugging away at my dance career yet now I am having the best time. When I let go of the pressure to be perfect I unlocked my potential and now I feel unstoppable!
I am in the best shape of my life and feel stronger and sexier in my skin than ever before. I’m in awe of my body and what it does for me on a daily basis!
I am making more money than ever, but I am also giving it away more than ever! I am using my money to make dreams happen for others while also contributing to my own financial foundation and future. And I am feeling more abundant and successful than ever! How cool is that!?
I’m psyched that you’re here because that means you are ready for the actionable wisdom to live your most fabulous life! I’m on this journey with you. I never stop learning. And what I learn, I’m going to relay to you and together we’re going to make this world one hell-of-a place to live!